Trust in Action!
01 Jun 2012 Leave a Comment
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I haven’t been writing much because of my temporary job. It has been very interesting and I have enjoyed it. It is a job scoring tests for a company in Longmont, Colorado. There are different subjects to score from different grade levels and different states. I started my third project yesterday and when we begin a new project, we have a training session and then a qualification test. I have done well on all of the qualifications so far and don’t have a problem taking tests, so I was surprised when I got 7 out of 10 on the first qual and needed an 8. Almost half of the people on the project had the same issue. It was a tricky test and it was interesting to watch people and their responses to not doing well. It was also fun for me to see the part of me that didn’t like not passing automatically and needing to be trained again. I took the second qual and again, I got a 7 out off 10 and was sent home. WOW!
There was an aspect of me that really didn’t like it, but I was able to check in with my Soul right away and she reminded me that it was just a different experience. I stayed with my Soul and went to a market on my way home and bought some groceries that I had on my list and also some lovely sushi for lunch. My Soul said it was “trust in action”. Instead of just pouting and going home, I decided to treat myself.
I will be going back to Longmont this morning to be trained for a different project. I feel like this will go more smoothly, but the most important “aha” that I received this morning was that being able to love myself either way is the key. My Soul can come in and be with me when I am loving myself and I cut her out of my life when I am being in fear and upset. I spent some time feeling into that and it is so simple. Of course, I know it is all about loving myself, but I also know that it is much easier to love myself when things are going well, when I making lots of money, when I’ve just lost weight and feel slimmer, or when I’m being loved by someone else. When things go “wrong”, I feel inadequate. I feel like maybe my Soul wants me to learn some kind of lesson that feels more like a punishment than love. I get angry at myself like I’ve done something wrong.
This time, I didn’t go there. I stayed with knowing that all was well in my creation. Now, I can see the beautiful gift that I gave myself and if I pass, or fail, I can still choose to love myself. It takes so much pressure off.
It’s time to celebrate!
28 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
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I woke up this morning and felt into the energy of celebration. I have had an aspect that has kept me in worry over a situation involving others and even though I fell prey to the aspect, everything still worked out well for me. It has been a big “aha” to continue to let go of fear energy over anything and bring in the energy of “everything is ok”, let’s celebrate– let’s have a party!
I choose to trust that I can let go . . .
14 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
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I started a temporary, full-time job last Tuesday. I have a 40 minute commute and I have turned my schedule upside down. The first day was really hard for me because the job is in a large building and I walked more than I have in a long time and I don’t think I slept well the night before worrying about getting there on time, so I was exhausted by the end of the day. The second day I found restrooms that were closer and that really helped, plus I slept better. The third day, one of my co-workers asked me if I wanted to borrow some metal crutches that she had from before she had knee replacement surgery and I said yes, so the fourth day I used them and I did much better walking around. The fifth day another co-worker offered me a metal cane to try.
The co-workers that I share a table with are lots of fun and we have many laugh breaks during the day. I have enjoyed this new adventure very much, but I have to say that I really loved having my morning coffee today. As I drank my coffee, I remembered waking up in the night feeling into worries that were mostly around money issues and what came to me was remembering Tobias saying years ago that when you are feeling like you are just barely hanging on, let go. Then I felt into whether I could trust letting go as much as I have trusted that I could barely hang on and barely survive.
What I could really feel was the difference between the two and I knew that by letting go, everything could just come to me when I needed it to– just like the crutches. Instead of trying to figure things out, it’s time to just let go and trust and know that the perfect answers, solutions, and any kind of abundance can come in.
Hear me now!
06 Apr 2012 Leave a Comment
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This morning it came to me that no one, or no thing is bigger, stronger, more than, or anything else than me! I can feel energies outside of me that are telling me that I can’t do it, whatever it is, and that I’ll never get there, wherever that is, and that I should give up. I am going to choose to keep feeling into that place in me that “is all that” and will never be less than any thing or any one else.
being in the present moment . . .
21 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
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As I drank my coffee this morning, I could feel that it was taking all that I had to stay in the present moment. I noticed how much of the time I was thinking about the past, or projecting into the future. Then I had the thought that maybe this was happening because I have been spending some time every afternoon imagining myself walking, skipping, hopping, and moving fluidly out into the world. Then, I heard Adamus say that now when I have those times of imagining to know that it isn’t in the future– it is in the present moment, just in a different dimension and to bring it all the way into my body, in the here and now, I should know that it is now, instead of feeling like it is a future event.
Then, I had the awareness that the pain in my body has brought me into the present moment each time I feel it. That is how it has served me and now, in order to let it go and not need it anymore, I can make the choice to be in the present moment without the physical pain and, of course, be conscious of being in the moment. I feel like in the beginning I will need to more breathing and that will help me focus on the moment at hand.
I am enlightened!
15 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
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The last few days I have been feeling enlightened. I really do know that my spiritual search is complete and even though my outward manifestations may not look like I am enlightened– I know it and that is the most important thing. Yesterday afternoon the energies were very intense and what really helped was saying “I am that I am” and I just kept breathing.
continuing my “out of the tube” experience . . .
12 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
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As soon as I sat down with my first cup of coffee, I felt Adamus and he was “outside my tube”, or in a different dimension inviting me to come to him. I remembered when Tobias invited all Shaumbra to meet him in a “different” place instead of him coming to us for the shoud. I just kept feeling into the experience and noticed different thoughts that I had. At one point, I thanked my mind because I knew that it was “relaxing” so I could have these experiences.
After drinking my coffee and continuing on with the experience, I heard my mind say “you can’t stay out there because there are things here that need to be fixed”. What I knew my mind was alluding to was different pains that I was feeling in my body. I explained to my mind that in “the all of me” there really isn’t anything that needs to be fixed and it can let go of that belief. It was another big aha for me to feel into how my mind has been trying to protect me from expanding.
These experiences are part of going “beyond the mind” and I am congratulating my mind for letting go of what it thought it needed to do, so that I can expand into the “all of me”. I am also reminding my mind that it is going along and won’t be left out of my body of consciousness which is my mind, body, and spirit. It just won’t have to work so hard anymore.
